I'm moving on....

As moving day approaches I find myself in a funky mood... one that is a mixture of excitement, nerves, and sadness! Excited to move into a new place, new people, new surroundings.

Nervous because I am actually ON MY OWN!! When I moved out of my parents house I had someone there helping me pay the bills and it wasn't all up to me, now it is ALL me! Which is a good thing that I don't have to rely on someone else, but kind of scary.

Sad because I love the house and it is so cute!!! And its my first house for being out on my own... I was doing laundry the other day and as I was folding towels I thought this will be the last time I do this here and as I was walking back out to the living room as sudden wave of sadness came over me, but it only lasted a few seconds. You know in movies where people have flash backs of times that they spent with people or doing something? My thoughts kind of flashed like that... I thought of all the stuff we had done in the house and to the house and our little christmas tree and decorations, it was a sad but happy feeling to have been able to have those times.

Even though my roommate and I's relationship is pretty strained at this point she will always have a place in my heart and everything that we went through in the house will forever be cherished memories.

When I think about this "new phase" of my life as I am calling it I think about the Rascal Flatts song I'm Moving On (not all of the lyrics pertain to my situation, but the thought behind the song)...

I've dealt with my ghosts and I've faced all my demons
Finally content with a past I regret
I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once I'm at peace with myself
I've been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long
I'm movin' on

I've lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different but they're always the same
They mean me no harm but it's time that I face it
They'll never allow me to change
But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong
I'm movin' on

I'm movin' on
At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there's no guarantees, but I'm not alone
There comes a time in everyone's life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days are gone

I sold what I could and packed what I couldn't
Stopped to fill up on my way out of town
I've loved like I should but lived like I shouldn't
I had to lose everything to find out
Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road
I'm movin' on

I'm movin' on
I'm movin' on